I am at a place where I cannot pray about this, or let myself consider that there is a reason for all this that i good.I have been waiting 4 years, and continiue to read about people who have been listed for a few weeks, or months and get "the call".
I have no idea why I am still waiting, and am beginning to resign that this is my life.
At least for whatever time there is.
Four years. May 6.